AnnaMaria_Elric's Xanga

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 03:48:16 GMT

Alright.
New xanga time.
In at least an hour, I will make a new xanga, with a less 'ongz you like edward/al' name
-thinks hard-
Inji

NEW XANGA BITCHES!!!

I__NeedRoyMustang_x
Yesh, that'sh right

Friday, September 16, 2005

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 16:00:28 GMT

I got my phone back.

Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay.

Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay.

Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay. Yay.

Yay

Maria

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 22:08:35 GMT

I know you love the new lookup. I read the new chapter of Fullmetal and I was like, "Ongz, bang bang edward." So I had to make a piccy of it.

That's right.

I read the new chapter and you didn't.

Faylin

AHAHAHAHAHAH!
-laughs at faylin-

This was the best day ever, except that I still don't have my phone back. Mr. Morris is the coolest person ever. He's gonna bust the bitch who took my phone.

Favorite People
Faylin
Mr. Garthe
Lena
Mr. Morris
Mr. Frick
Ms. Dorsey
Ms. Cole.
Mercedes

^Cool people.

Rawr,
Maria

"So, Mr. Garthe, When are we gonna die?" - Courtney B. in Science when we were talking about greenhouse gasses

The rain
f   a   I  l
a  n    a
l   d     u
l           g
s          h

I wanted to watch the sun shine
I
thought
I guess not
Because though the sun
Makes me
C
H
E
E
R
Y
The rain makes me laugh
as it pitter-patters
On my windows
My eyes light up
at the so called gloomy sky
It's funny to me
H
a
   H
     a
       !
        !

--Maria Carvell 2005

EDIT///

What's the matter with the clothes I'm wearing?
"Can't you tell that your tie's too wide?"
Maybe I should buy some old tab collars?
"Welcome back to the age of jive
Where have you been hidin' out lately, honey?
You can't dress trashy till you spend a lot of money"
Everybody's talkin' 'bout the new sound
Funny, but it's still rock and roll to me 

What's the matter with the car I'm driving?
"Can't you tell that it's out of style?"
Should I get a set of white wall tires?
"Are you gonna cruise a miracle mile?
Nowadays you can't be too sentimental
You best bet's a true baby blue Continental"
Hot funk, cool punk, even if it's old junk
It's still rock and roll to me 

Oh, it doesn't matter what they say in the papers
'Cause it's always been the same old scene
There's a new band in town
But you can't get the sound from a story in a magazine...
Aimed at your average teen 

How about a pair of pink sidewinders
And a bright orange pair of pants?
"You could really be a Beau Brummel baby
If you just give it half a chance
Don't waste your money on a new set of speakers
You get more mileage from a cheap pair of sneakers"
Next phase, new wave, dance craze, anyways
It's still rock and roll to me 

What's the matter with the crowd I'm seeing?
"Don't you know that their out of touch?"
Should I try to be a straight 'A' student?
"If you are then you think too much
Don't you know about the new fashion honey?
All you need are looks and a whole lotta money"
It's the next phase, new wave, dance craze, anyways
It's still rock and roll to me
Everybody's talkin' 'bout the new sound
Funny, but it's still rock and roll to me

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 20:02:24 GMT

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

Imagine no possesions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 01:17:35 GMT

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

DAMN DAMN

SOME BITCH STOLE MY PHONE!!!

WHEN I FOUND OUT WHO THE FUCKER IS, I AM GOING TO BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HER!!!

-Inji Arawasu

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 00:42:01 GMT

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg

You'll never guess who I'm talking to.

marissa

yey.

for those of you who don't know

marissa is my bestestest friend ever

ever

yey

byebye

Monday, September 12, 2005

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 00:10:22 GMT

Yeshterday was my party.
I got cool shtuffs. I love my new game. -hugs FMA2-
I also love the Wicked Soundtrack.
Wewt.

MORE STORY!!!

Riza shifted through the sad mess that was once Edward’s apartment. She found a small wrapped package on the table by the door. Glancing around and confirming that she was alone, she slipped the package out of its colorful wrapping. She opened the small velvet covered box and gasped upon seeing the gift inside. Inside was a small ring with a silver band and a golden stone with a small black dot in the middle.

Engraved in the ring was a simple note. I’ll love forever, Edward. On the inside was carved Roy. Riza dropped the package and left the room quickly.

---

Roy rolled over in the bed where he had lain for almost an entire week. His pillow squished slightly from the tears that had soaked and built up inside. He ran his fingers through his hair, greasy and matted. He sighed and rolled onto his back, feeling the tears coming back up again. He glanced around the room and suddenly, a white haze began to form in the right side of his room. He blinked and rubbed his eyes, as the haze began to form into a fuzzy shape of a body. As the haze came into focus, Roy gasped and fell off the side of the bed. There, at the other side of the bed, was a translucent Edward Elric.

“Roy,” the voice was an angelic whisper, so quiet that if it were any softer it would be unheard.

“Roy, what are you doing?”

“Edo-kun…” Roy lifted his head above the bed and looked at him with awe. “I-is that you?”

“I asked you a question.”

“I d-don’t know what you mean.”

“You’re dwelling, Roy.” Edward drifted towards him and became so close that he was almost touching his face, “I told you not to dwell, didn’t I?”

Roy gulped and nodded shakily. “W-why are you h-here?”

“I need to tell you,” Edward drifted back and looked in Roy’s eyes with pity, “that you need to move on. Now.”

“Stay with me, please.”

“I can’t Roy. I can’t touch you, feel you, be with you. I can only see you.”

Tears came back to his eyes. “Don’t say that.” He grabbed a pillow and threw it towards him, closing his eyes, “Don’t lie!”

He opened his eyes as the pillow flew through Edward’s stomach and landed on the ground.

“You can’t touch me, or hurt me. We can’t. I can’t.” Edward sighed, crying invisible tears. “It can’t be. It’s not over…” He looked up at Roy and whispered, “…I am.”

“I’m sorry, Edward…”

“I have to go,”

“You have to know! It was all my fault… and I’m sorry.”

But Edward was already gone in the mist of the early morning. Roy soaked his sheets with tears.

---

Somehow getting himself out of bed, Roy struggled out of his apartment. He had cleaned himself, but he felt the same as the night before. He walked down to work at six, not being able to sleep at all since the incident the night before.

At work, all he did was stare at the wall, signing papers that he didn’t even know what they said. After doing work for hours, he gave up, laying his head on the desk and staring off into the distance. He spotted a blank notebook and reached for it, not even knowing what he would write. He just started writing everything he thought of down. It turned into this:

Dear Edward,

I can't begin to tell you how awful and horrible each day has been since that terrible day. I don't even know how I cope. It might be that I know that you'd want me to, or maybe it's that I have this faint, foolish hope that I'll see you. I know I won't and that's that part of me that makes me sad.

Every day tugs on my heart, but all the times we had together, good and bad, will always overpower that extreme sadness. Edward, nothing can bring you back, and we both know that. I'm hoping that you're thinking of me, in the better place that you are at. My life will never be the same now.

The only thing that gets me out of bed each day is knowing that it's what you would have wanted. You wouldn't want me to dwell on the past, but Ed-kun, it's so hard. I miss you more than anything.

Even if the world dries up and its inhabitants become bitter, and even if the entire world forgets you. I will always remember you.

Love,

Roy Mustang.

Suddenly, he felt different. It was like all the sadness had drifted away. Like it was sucked into the note he had just written.

And that’s how the love letters started.

---

Soon, the letters filled the notebooks. They filled folders, and whole stacks of paper from the typewriter. He would write one and all the sadness would go away… temporarily. He would be his old self, no one knowing any better, but as soon as the sadness began to creep back, he would make some excuse and write a letter. Or two. Or five. Whatever it took, he would take any time and do it.

Soon, people began to catch on to what was going on. Riza was cleaning through his office and came across the box filled with all the letters. She informed others and people began to avoid talking about anything remotely close to the subject of Edward. As people became more and more worried, Roy wrote more and more.

One day, there was a lot of yelling coming from the colonel’s office. Riza was walking down the hallway when she heard the door slam open and close. Roy ran down the hallway and pushed Riza on the ground, taking her gun.

“COLONEL!” She got up quickly and ran towards him into Edward’s dusty old office. He shoved the gun into his mouth.

“Colonel, stop it. Take the gun out of your mouth.” She looked into his eyes sternly, “Now.”

His eyes looking into hers, they read loud and clear. No.

“Please,” Her eyes were changing; they looked into his with sadness and pleading. “Don’t do it to me, too. Haven’t you stopped to think that there are other people that care about you?”

He pulled the gun out of his mouth slowly, and looked at her. “Elizabeth?”

“People like me, Roy.” She felt her eyes well up with tears and she walked towards him, laying her head on his chest, “Don’t make me hurt, please.”

He hadn’t felt the warmth of a woman in a long time. He hugged her, feeling rather awkward. “I-I won’t.”

---

Several weeks later, Roy was sitting his office when Riza burst into his office.

“Sir,” she thrust an envelope into his face, “You won’t believe this.”

He slowly took the envelope and opened it.

“James Elric.” He looked up at Riza. “Another one?”

She nodded.

“How old is our youngest Elric?”

“Seventeen, sir.”

“Hmm…” he thought for a second, turning his chair to the window. “I guess I had better give him a visit, eh?”

She smiled, “That would be nice.”

“Book me for a train ride. Mark this as a private mission.”

“Of course, sir.”

Friday, September 09, 2005

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 20:52:30 GMT

You know what?
Time for a new xanga.

Yeah, that's right.
I said it.

I will tell you what it is when I make it.

Maria

edit//
I forgot to say.
This really funny thing happened in L.A. yesterday
So we were in Launguage Arts and Keith was making fun of dallas and I wasn't really paying attention when all of a sudden there is this loud thud on the table behind us and Dallas is spralled across the table.
Ms Cole: What are you doing dallas?
Dallas: Trying to kill seth

He actually said that....

Later, he came back in the room and Keith said, "He came back to finish the Job..."

I love Language arts... it's the best class...

Okay
bye

Friday, September 09, 2005

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 11:18:40 GMT

I think I want a new xanga.

Rawr

I'm making a RoyXEd manga called Elric Ella, I drew the front page, let me post it.

---waits for the page to load---

Yeah...

I'd type the details when I feel like it.

right now I'm just doing the drawings. The text comes last.
-has a making manga book-

Yeeeeah

School time,

BYe

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 20:13:31 GMT

Roy strolled down the hallway of the apartment building, going to his favorite place. This place was Edward Elric’s apartment. At eighteen, Edward had fully matured. Well, he had fully matured physically. Most definitely not mentally. Though on the outside, he acted older than Roy, in private, Edward acted like a little kid.

Not bothering to knock, he tried the door. He peered in and saw the blonde sitting on the couch flipping through channels, and was obviously bored. He opened the door all the way and stepped in.

“YOUR SAVIOR HAS ARRIVED!”

Edward continued to look at the television screen, not caring that Roy was yelling in his doorway.

“Close the door, Roy-san.” Edward said, glancing at him. “Its winter and I don’t like the cold.”

“Something wrong, Edo-kun?” Roy shut the door quietly behind him and walked up to the couch.

“Just in a bad mood.” He sighed. “I need something to do-“ He covered his mouth, wishing that he hadn’t said that.

“NO PROBLEM!” Roy grabbed his hand and pulled him off the couch. Edward pulled his hand back.

“Not today, Roy-san.” He sat back on the couch and sighed. “Today is not a good day.”

Roy pouted. “Are you sure?” He put a hand on Edward’s messy blonde hair. Edward swatted the hand away.

“Yeah, I’m sure.”

Hurt, Roy walked out of the room, drooping his head. “Er, bye, Edo-kun.”

Edward just stared at the screen.

Shutting the door behind him, Roy leaned against the wall and thought. What could have put him in such a bad mood? He pondered and then walked off, in low spirits.

- - -

The next day, Edward got up at the ungodly hour of four and lay in bed for several minutes before getting up and stumbling into his closet. He was trying as hard as he could to choose between the Military uniform and his outfit.

After about ten minutes of staring at the clothes, he reached for the Military uniform, which he hardly wore. He slipped into it, noticing that it was getting smaller. Sighing, he left the apartment building, not bothering to eat.

Not knowing that today was his birthday; Edward was nineteen and hardly noticed. This also meant that he and Roy were almost official for two years.

Two long years.

He paused.

What? He answered back to his mind.

You heard what I said. Two long years.

No, I love Roy, don’t start with me.

You saw how you treated him yesterday. I think you’re winding down.

“No!” Realizing that he was yelling at himself, he ignored the voice. Walking silently in the bitterly cold morning air, he saw someone equally as bitter looking as himself walking in the early hours. They were wearing a black over coat, and instantly, he knew who it was. He ran up to the midnight black-haired man and started walking next to him.

“Er…sorry about yesterday.” He looked at the ground.

Roy jumped when he saw the blonde-haired boy. “Hi, Edo-kun,” He smiled, putting his arm around him. “Early morning too?”

Edward snuggled closer to him. He was warm, especially compared to the icy cold air. “Heh heh, yeah.”

“No problem. We all have our days, don’t we?”

He smiled. “Yeah…”

The two walked to the office.

----

Edward sat in his office tapping his pencil incessantly on his desk. “So bored,” he mumbled. He looked down at the report he just finished and thought to himself, “I had better take those down.”

He picked them up, leaving the slightly dented pencil on his desk. Walking down the hall, hands in the pockets which were in a different place than his black pants, he sighed.

Riza passed him in the hallway and waved unusually happily, hoping to somehow lift his spirits. No such luck.

As he approached the office of the Colonel, he checked his pocket watch. Almost five. He would be off work soon. He opened the door and Roy was lying asleep on his desk.

Edward smiled in a pitying sort of way and walked up to the desk. “Roy-san.”

Roy shifted a bit, but didn’t move. “Roy!” His head lifted in a real sleepy sort of way and looked at Ed.

“Oh, hey Edo-kun,” he sleepily replied to him, “You got those reports for me? I actually get out of work on time today so I thought we could go out.”

Edward’s mind raced. A date? First, his eyes lit up in an ‘omigod’ sort of way, but then he thought about whether or not he wanted to go.

“Er…Roy-san…”

“Yeeeesssss,” He said, while checking things off on the reports.

“Er, I can’t go.”

“What?!” Dropping the papers, Roy stood up.

“I ca-can’t go…”

“Man, really?” His head drooped and he plopped back in the chair.

“Yeah, er, I need to get my arm fixed soon, and Winry’s coming into town tonight, so she’ll do it tonight.”

“Well…” he signed the last line, “…at least let me walk you home.”

“Er, okay…”

----

Roy kissed his forehead and said, “Ok… well, see you later…”

“Yeah… I guess…”

Roy gave him a look that said, “What, you’re not going to invite me in?”

Edward sighed and walked into his apartment. When he was about to close the door Roy caught it, making Edward jump.

“Happy Birthday, Edo.” He leaned in and kissed him on the mouth. Edward stumbled back as Roy put his arms around the boy. Edward gave in and put his arms around Roy’s neck. Feeling Edward kiss back made all his troubles melt away.

Roy pulled back and patted his boyfriend. He reached into his pocket, fishing out a small package. “Open it after I leave.” He ran his hand through Edward’s hair.

“Do-don’t leave.” He pulled Roy close to him, almost forceably.

"Okay, Edo." He kissed him again. "I thought you had to meet Winry."

"I just want to be with you on my birthday."

"Happy Nineteenth." He pushed Edward onto the bed, laying on top of him. "I love you, Edo-kun."

Edward smiled, almost evilly. "I love you, Roy-san." He kissed him, not even noticing that he was almost being crushed under Roy's weight.

Roy pushed down on Edward's arms harder, and he cringed. Edward remained silent, not wanting to ruin the moment. Roy became more and more aggressive, pushing more weight on Edward then he ever had before, "Roy-san."

Roy ignored him.

As Roy pushed his lips on Edward, he pulled back, "Roy-san, it hurts."

Roy remained silent.

Edward moved his legs with trouble, slamming them into Roy's stomach, pushing him off the bed. Edward's eyes welled up with tears. "What's wrong with you?"

Roy shook his head, and felt the blood trickle from where his head had hit the ground. "Edo-kun,"

Roy stood up and walked to him. "St-stay away," Edward backed into the wall.

He put his hands on the boy's shoulders, and Edward looked to the side. "Edo-kun, stop it."

"Me stop i-" Roy pressed his lips to Edward's mouth, and chills ran up his back. His whole body went numb, making it impossible for him to squirm away.

Edward couldn't do anything. He just stood there, stunned. When Roy let him go, Edward mangaged to get away, running across the room. "L-leave me alone. Ju-ust never talk to me again."

Edward opened the door and began to run out of it, but Roy caught his waist in his strong grip and turned him around.

"Be careful, Edo."

"Stop calling me that!!!"

Roy's eyes lit up in shock when he heard him say this, giving Edward the opportune moment to leave his grip. "Edo-kun!" Roy started to run after him.

Edward ran down the steps and into the street without even bothering to look.Roy watched in horror from the sidewalk, all in a flash the car slammed into his side and he was laying on the ground. "Edo-kun!!!!"

Roy ran up to his side and grabbed Edward's hand, his side was bleeding heavily and Roy began to snap his fingers.

"N-no," Edward grabbed his gloved hand, "Even that way, I can't survive."

Roy choked, "D-don't say that." He took his hand away. "I can fix it."

Edward reached out and slapped him, "STOP IT!" He coughed blood. "Y-you can't save me. Stop being foolish. L-listen to me.

"Don't think that because I'm gone you can d-dwell on t-this." Edward smiled pitifully. "I want you to live for me, so just..." Edward closed his eyes for a while. "Just don't stop being Roy."

"Edward, you aren't going to leave me. I won't let you." Roy was holding back tears.

"Stop, you're making me feel worse." Edward tightened his grip.

"Ed-kun, I can fix you, just let me flame..."

"No, Roy, that won't work this time," he coughed up blood. "The cut is far too deep."

Roy buried his head into Edward's chest, "I'm sorry."

Roy felt Edward's grip loosen. "It's okay." He heard his pulse stop.

"Edo-kun..."

And for the first time, Roy Mustang cried.